Pay no attention to kindness, but amplify every act of injustice.

I've stopped yearning to be the favourite years ago, since she came along. I am so over that phase of feeling unwanted. I know where I stand. You may use me, you have to right to. I won't even struggle anymore, because nothing I do can break this tie that binds. 

If you have nothing good to say, say nothing at all.

You are me, your blood flows in mine. You will find me if you look hard enough. Why didn't you? If all I can have are just memories, please just let them wither and die.

It's just me. I don't even know what I want anymore.

Created me in Your perfect image, given me life.

How many times have I brought You grief with my empty promises? Living my life the way I want, failing to remember that it should be all be about You. I know that You are always there, that Your love for me will grant me forgiveness as long as I asked. But I didn't, because I am afraid. 

I am afraid that it will be yet another half-hearted attempt on my part. I am afraid that I am not strong enough to hold Your guiding hand, to fight with you against the temptations and the moulds of the world.I am afraid that I won't have the stamina and perseverance, that I'll give up again before I can hear Your still, small voice.

No more empty promises on my part.

I just want to let you know that,

I'm sorry.